SELF-DESTRUCTIVE TENDENCIES

i'm suddenly compelled to stir the waters just to see what might surface.. On second thought i'm just bored. Instead of rehashing the past focus that energy forward, what's important is the future and taking the steps needed to achieve those goals. In a little over 7 months i'll be back in SAN DIEGO! It feels really good to say that over and over to myself. I greatly anticipate touching base with all the people at church and those i've managed to still keep in contact with over the years. Then of course there's taking over the responsibilities as HEAD of the families! (Filipino Mafia here i come) I still have my eyes set on living in La Jolla and helping a few friends get out of paradise hills. Once i have all that in place, i can start back up socially and wreak havoc on the dating scene. Before i get ahead of myself, i have to finish strong and wrap up my Far East experience by traveling to as many destinations as i can: Singapore, Taiwan, Korea, China, and Thailand. These final few months will also be spent gathering everything i can, from clothing to kitchenware, to be brought back to the states. Top of the list: Mandarin style uniform, school bag, and ramen tools. Still on the fence as to weather or not get inked while here in Japan. If i keep up with my workout routine and show significant results at the end of 2009 then I'm getting my "love moderately" tattoo for my birthday in 2010. Keep pushing to go further, faster, and stronger.

These gifts have to be earned, not taken for granted. Celebrate change, growing up, completing goals, and self actualization. Anything and everything is possible. Meet new and interesting people, be unrecognizable to those who knew you. Surround myself with positive people. Individuals who inspire and are creative enough to bounce ideas back and forth. Above all else, adopt the motto: "Live life grown and sexy!" Take everything to the next level. It's been years since the wild and crazy days of college. Be that guy the frat boys envy and sorority girls lust after.

Don't talk about it. BE ABOUT IT!

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